Saturday, April 30, 2011

Dr.

Finally,

Dr is for Drama.

Drama that I have gone through today. 

All the heartache and hardship. Ups and downs in 6 years.

But all in all, I just want to say :)


Actually, Dr is for Doctor :)

**Note: I will write more later! InsyaAllah.

Friday, April 29, 2011

Al-Kahfi (Sheikh Mishary)



  • Selamat Hari Jumaat!
  • Semoga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam dan lebih sakinah :)
  • Tekan pause lagu di sebelah sebelum dgr bacaan di atas. 

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Rumah Muslim

Ma hua bait al muslim?

Rumah + Islam  = Rumah Islam.

Semua yang ada di rumah itu adalah dari cahaya Islam. Basicnya Islam. Mulai dibentuk dengan cara Islam, berjalan  dengan cara Islam dan akhirnya mendapat kebahagian sesuai ajaran-ajaran Islam.- Habiburrahman El Shirazy 

Bertemunya calon ayah dan ibu adalah dengan cara Islam.

**Nota:
  • Sebenarnya ini adalah hasil edit dari dalam draft yang dah lama simpan. Ermm. Tak lama mana jugak tapi bolehlah. Malam ni rasa nak kuarkan entri ni.
  • Dengar dari ceramah dlm youtube. Nak dgr jugak? 
  • Klik : http://saifulislam.com/9602

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

‘man jadda wajada’ to ‘man shabara zhafira’

Those familiar with Negeri Lima Menara (The Nation of Five Towers), the first novel in a best-selling series by Ahmad Fuadi, will recall how Alif Fikri discovered truth in the mantra "man jadda wajada" (there is always a way for those willing to go the extra mile).

Now, in the second installment, Ranah Tiga Warna (The Land of Three Colours), as life becomes more complicated for Alif, he finds this mantra is not enough to keep things under control. But all is not lost, as he discovers another mantra, "man shabara zhafira" (luck comes to those who wait).

This novel shows that Alif’s ambition to study in university and go abroad remains high despite doubt from his close friends and family financial hardships.

As an Islamic boarding school graduate, Alif faces a daunting challenge that might destroy his dream: he must pass a senior high school equivalence test before he can take the state university entrance test. Alif knows his father is not rich and can only finance his study at a state university.

With his dubious and restless effort to learn high school materials that he never learned before, he finally succeeds in entering one of Bandung’s prestigious universities, Padjadjaran University, where he studies international relations.

In his own way, Alif enjoys new friendships in college that depict (perhaps) forgotten feelings of youth, devil-may-care attitudes, idealistic hopes and dreams and unexplainable bonds that provide comfort and security.

However, not long after college starts Alif receives a telegram from his mother telling him to go back to his home village, Maninjau, West Sumatra, as his father has fallen ill. Back home, Alif almost cannot recognize his father’s face in the hospital. He can see a mixture of delight, joy, and gratification on his father’s weary face after seeing his son’s arrival. Alif senses that his father is holding something back, a worry he tries not to show.

Death, the only certainty in life, finally comes to take his father away. With cold hands and words weakly spoken, Alif prays to himself: not here, not now.

Regrets, sorrows and promises fill his head as he heads back to Bandung. He cannot help the tears that run down his face upon remembering the simple, almost forgotten experiences he had while growing-up, feelings left unsaid, promises left unfulfilled  and the sometimes the impolite things he wishes he hadn’t said. Left with regrets, he realizes that he never expresses his love for his father in words. After his father’s death, the only thing left he can do is to fulfill his father’s last wish: finish school and be the father of the family.

Six months after his father’s death, Alif becomes absorbed in self-pity and grief. He is drowned in his own emotional battle between being realistic (quitting school and taking care of his family back home) or keeping his promise to his father (to finish school, especially after the sacrifices his father made to get him into university).

The never-ending difficulties make him doubt man jadda wajada. How can we identify the thin line between being realistic and optimistic?

Man shabara zhafira becomes the mantra that initiates a turning point of his life. Admitting the truth is often the hardest thing, and that is what Alif does to overcome his despair. He admits that he is weak. He admits that he is fatherless — but a strong person. Penniless, but will soon be rich. 

Unfortunate, but fortune will come. Go the extra mile and be patient, and you will succeed, he says to himself.

“The teacher will appear when the pupil is ready”, a proverb said. Indeed, Alif somehow manages to learn to write from whom he idolizes, a man named Bang Togar. Little by little, his writings make it into well-known newspapers, which eventually bring him overseas to Canada — with a scholarship in hand. His dream is finally fulfilled.

Arabic proverbs are indeed the foundation of this novel since A. Fuadi, the author, was once educated at an Islamic institution. 

However, the moral messages and essence are not far from inapplicable in our daily lives. It does not matter whether you are a Buddhist, Christian, or even an atheist, this book carries messages that may just shed of light in times of darkness.

Perhaps some of us have been caught up with chasing our ambitions, but Fuadi’s semi-autobiographical novel encourages us to reflect on what is important and where we come from. Sometimes, we might even have forgotten the sacrifices our parents have made in order for us to be here. His emotional departure of his father would perhaps remind us to treasure what we have before it’s gone.

Change is inevitable, as well as challenges and difficulties. The hardest battle, however, often takes place within ourselves. When that happens, we must remind ourselves that we always have a reason to live, and sometimes, must be willing to get out of our comfort zone to find out the most important things life. 

And if that happens, would we drown in regrets, or would it push us to grow? Inspirational, emotional, and honest, this book will take us to a world we had once been in but perhaps have been forgotten.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Masa

Bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim

Assalamualaikum wbt 

Cerita Hari Ahad

Tengah hari hujung minggu

Keputusan exam comprehensive yang 200 soalan (yang saya rasa nak nangis lepas jawab) keluar hari ini. Saya waktu itu memang tidak ada apa-apa kerja penting, langsung bersiap-siap ke sana. Bangunan administration (P3D). Janji dengan wani dan aimi ke sana. Jumpa mereka di pintu pagar, naik sama-sama, berdebar sama-sama dan tengok keputusan sama-sama. Nilai kita berbeza dan saya cepat-cepat balik rumah. 

Dalam lif sudah tekan hp untuk call ma, (kat sini ada line pulak dlm lif kan? ;) Ma kata, ini ujian. Along call juga petang hari yang sama. Hafizi sms juga, tapi akhir sms dia tanya, "dah makan ke belum?" hehe. Jarang tanya macamtu :) 

Waktu malam

Call shahida, zatul dan janji dengan siti malam ini kita berkampung sampai hari selasa(hari ini). Nazurah pun call, katanya " tasha nnt HO taktaulah mcmane kan?" hehe. Nasihat yang bagus :)

Kami habiskan soalan final sampai pukul 1 pagi lebih. 

Isnin

Kami berkampung lagi, kira macam all out juga lah untuk kertas akhir ni. Saya tak habis-habis cakap,

"kita kena usaha lebih skit je, kita tahu banyak benda nnt"


Shahida gelak :)

Buku tebal, buku dalam almari, dan internet memang semua kami guna nak cari jawapan. 

1.00pm

Tersebar berita yang keputusan OSCE pula yang akan keluar. Berdebar tapi dalam hati redha dengan keputusan yang akan dapat.

Alhamdulillah :) Kami semua lulus. Kami : saya, siti, shahida, zatul. Tahniah untuk Nadia(housemate bukan kakak saya, nama saja sama). Dah boleh panggil Dr. Nadia. 

Lega sedikit hati. Senyum. Teruskan lagi belajar sampai malam. 

Hari ini.

Dalam dekat-dekat pukul 8 am masuk dewan exam. Baca doa dan Bismillah, terus isi borang jawapan dengan nama dan no mahasiswa. Bertarung lebih kurang 4 jam setengah dalam dewan. Baca betul-betul dan cuba jawab sebaik mungkin. 

Tepat jam 11.30am keluar dewan. siti tunggu di luar dewan, ada nadia yang sengaja datang. Tanya siti,

"macamane tadi?"

"semoga semua dari kita lulus"


Sekarang tinggal kuasa tawakkal  dan doa sahaja. Doa banyak-banyak. 

*Masa : antara cepat atau lambat sahaja. Allah swt memang akan menguji dengan apa yang kita nak sangat. apa yang kita impikan sangat. apa yang kita sayang. Sampai masanya kita akan sampai pada apa yang kita impikan juga. InsyaAllah :)

Nota :
  • Penat tak dapat nak tidur , jadi terpaksa "menulis" kat sini :) 
  • Terima kasih abah, ma, along yang pagi-pagi lagi call. Terima kasih kawan-kawan yang sms pagi tadi juga.  
  • Terima kasih juga yang tulis di wall di FB. Suka baca. Suka juga baca status kawan-kawan batch saya yang lain.
  • Buat kawan-kawan yang masih ada exam OSCE, teruskan semangat dan do the very best! Semoga dipermudahkan semuanya. Kita akan sama-sama amik gambar baling-baling topi graduation sekali lagi sama-sama :)

Sunday, April 24, 2011

When I Fall


I remember driving down on three fifty nine
Saw a homeless veteran riding his bike
The red white and blue waving off his handle bars
And all us who sent him off to war driving by in our cars

And I recall a hot day in the city of Cairo
Saw an old woman and her babies on the side of the road
A good man came by put bottled water in her lap
She smiled and I cried saying why didn't i do that

And i, i don't know I don't know if i give anything at all
With these millions of moments that i'll take before I fall
But I, I do know I do know that Id give anything at all
For just one meaningful moment to catch me, catch me when I fall

I'd known her for many years of my life
She was a lady poets write about, she was my wife.
I never found my pen, never gave her the time or the dance
Now just like everything else i'm asking for one last chance

And i, i don't know I don't know if I give anything at all
With these millions of moments that i'll take before I fall
But i, i do know i do know that i'd give anything at all
For just one meaningful moment to catch me, catch me when i fall

And there's still life in me and a wife with me so i'll strive to be
A man who takes a chance, learns to dance, and grabs the moment with these hands, with these hands

And i, i do know i do know that i'd give anything at all
For just one meaningful moment to catch me catch me when i

I don't know I don't know if i give anything at all
With these millions of moments that i'll take before i fall
But i, i do know i do know that i'd give anything at all
For just one meaningful moment to catch me, catch me when i fall
Catch me when i fall

Kareem Salama

** Kena betul lagu ni dengan apa yang terjadi harini. Thanks fathiyyah tag lagu ni di FB :)
**Sometimes it is ok to fall :) Dont give up! Pray for me. 
**Jumpa minggu depan mungkin. Kalau ada rezeki dan panjang umur. InsyaAllah :)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Anti-Depressant In The Quran



Looking for anti depressant? I found one in Living Wisdom, Loving Life.

We ask : Why am I being tested?
The Quran answers : “Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, “We believe”, and that they will not be tested? We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false.” [Al-Ankabut: 2-3].
We ask : Why am I not getting what my heart desires?
The Quran answers: “But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and ye know not.” [Al-Baqarah: 216].
We ask : Why is this test too hard for me?
The Quran answers : “On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear.” [Al-Baqarah: 286]
We ask : Why do I feel so low?
The Quran answers : “So lose not heart, nor fall into despair: For ye must gain mastery if ye are true in Faith.” [Ali-Imran: 139].
We ask : How do I get through this?
The Quran answers : “Nay, seek ((Allah)’s) help with patient perseverance and prayer: It is indeed hard, except to those who bring a lowly spirit- Who bear in mind the certainty that they are to meet their Lord, and that they are to return to Him.” [Al-Baqarah: 45-46].
We ask: What good will come out of all this suffering?
The Quran answers : “Allah hath purchased of the believers their persons and their goods; for theirs (in return) is the garden (of Paradise)…”[At-Taubah: 111].
We ask : To whom do we turn for help?
The Quran answers: “(Allah) sufficeth me: there is no god but He: On Him is my trust…” [At-Taubah: 129].
We whine : I can’t stand it any longer!
The Quran says : “…and never give up hope of Allah’s Soothing Mercy: truly no one despairs of Allah’s Soothing Mercy, except those who have no faith.”
[Yusuf: 87].
(Translated from an email.)


Subhanallah! It is all right here, right here in our Holy Book! We spend our resources looking for self-help books, motivation and even shrinks; we take up hobbies because we think by preoccupying our idleness we can beat the blues. I used to think likewise. Unfortunately, I have to say that we have been looking in the wrong places.
Hobbies, retail therapy and every worldly remedy that we think can cure our depressions work only to some extend. They are all nothing more than a mirage. When we reach a certain point where we thought we could find the answer, it is not there, and we’ll discover that we’ll have to keep looking. It becomes very tiring. In the end, instead of being truly happy, fulfilled and content, we feel even more lost and empty. I am sorry but people who are convinced they are happy with those superficial “therapies” have been sadly deluded. How many times have we chased after or battle our “demons” and yet those “demons” have never really left us? If anything, they keep coming back, bigger and more menacing than ever.
Let us step out of our current selves for a moment, and look in from an outsider’s point of view. Why is it that we still fall into bouts of depressions when in fact we have reached our life goals? What is it that we should actually be looking for?
It should not take much to acknowledge that our over-attachment to the world is our demons! The question is whether we want to admit it or not. We can never find contentment until we successfully sever ourselves from being too attached. We spend everything we can for this life, as if it will never end. Unfortunately, it definitely will, and the saddest thing is, we have no idea when that will happen.
What is the life of this world but play and amusement? But best is the home in the hereafter, for those who are righteous.” [Al-Anam: 32]
Allah has prescribed the antidote for our miseries, and it is right here staring back at us. The Quran. It has all the answers.
So, my beloved brothers and sisters, let’s make a habit of reading it everyday, understand its meaning and practise what it preaches. InsyaAllah.
Thanks Ummu 'Aisyah :) 

Hari Cuti Semalam



Assalamualaikum wbt

"Free from classes and hospital for the time being"

Lepas exam final haritu ok lagi. Berehat di rumah catch up balik tidur dan makan (eh tak makan ke sebelum ni?)

Betul! Beberapa orang tegur, 

"Kak Tasha makin kurus lah" junior yang datang rumah semalam :) 

"Akak pun rasalah" (rasa jelah, secara pasti tak sure) 

*Tak penting pula perbualan kat atas.

Semalam satu hari saya kat rumah kat sini saja. Bukan rumah di kampung yang riuh rendah dengan kanak-kanak dan budak kecik(adik) yang boleh kacau. Satu hari semalam saya kemas-kemas, masak dan makan sama-sama(housemate dan adik junior dan adik kandung). Satu hari tengok TV, lama sangat rasa tak tengok TV. Sudahnya rasa tak biasa pula bila cuti kat sini. Sebabnya kalau cuti terus balik kampung halaman yang riuh rendah. 

Semalam ada buat satu entri, sempatlah dalam tak berapa lama publish, kena simpan dalam draft balik :) Nantilah fikir balik tulis dan tulis balik. Mesti ramai tekan tak jumpa entri yang sempat keluar di bloglist. 

Semalam Ustazah sms tentang kelas mengaji juga. Bila ustazah sms cakap tentang pindah kelas sebab petang selalu hujan lebat kat sini. 2 kali dah saya tak datang(sebab balik msia dan exam final). InsyaAllah akan komited.

Semalam juga dapat peringatan tentang diri. Hidup beramai-ramai(jemaah). Boleh ke hidup sorang-sorang? Jemaah itu lebih dari sorang. Penting sangat penting. * Hurai dalam entri lain tentang ini. InsyaAllah semoga ditetapkan hati untuk terus di jalan-Nya. Terima kasih sahabat! 

Setakat ini dahulu. Janji hari ini nak keluar. Nak pergi ITB (bukan universiti diorang, ye adik saya belajar di sana) 

**Letak gambar semalam balik. 

Friday, April 22, 2011

Alwaqtu 'ilaj



Masa itu mengubat :)

Sekarang aku mampu tersenyum menyelak kembali lembaran cerita dahulu. Kadang-kadang aku juga cuba memberitahu orang lain bahawa jangan jadi lemah! Jadilah seorang yang kuat.

Tiba-tiba aku rasa nak cerita tentang waktu yang mengubat. Kalau dulu masa kau buat perkara tersebut, aku menangis bengkak mata merah sampai aku rasa aku tak mungkin sampai di mana tempat aku berada sekarang. Kau pula punya banyak alasan dan cerita yang kau kata itu sebabnya. 

Aku teruskan langkah aku dalam kehidupan ini. Pada awalnya aku rasakan sungguh perit dan sesak. Tapi aku tetap teruskan juga. Semakin lama aku melangkah satu-satu hikmah yang tersingkap. Aku bangun dari rasa terjatuh. Aku tak banyak cerita kepada orang yang tanya. Bagi aku biar Tuhan yang tahu. 

Alhamdulillah. Hanya itu yang aku mampu katakan sekarang. Aku mampu tersenyum mengenang ketika itu. Aku menjadi matang dan banyak belajar dari pengalaman. 


 

Alwaqtu juz-un minal 'ilaj. 

Waktu adalah bagian dari terapi, pesan Hassan Al Banna.

Nota 1: Skip pasal exam baca cerita kat atas sekejap.

Nota 2: "aku" dan "kau" adalah mereka yang dalam kehidupan. manusia biasa sahaja yang banyak melakukan kehidupan.

Nota 3: Gambar bunga yang saya sangat suka. Mohon dengan sangat Ya Allah! 

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Post exam (tawakkal)



Assalamualaikum wbt

Dekat sebulan juga tak menulis di sini. Final exam selesai semalam.

Fuhhh lega! tapi masih belum lega sepenuh hati sebab keputusan belum keluar. Usaha sudah dilakukan tinggal tawakkal dan doa banyak-banyak sekarang ini.

Apa khabar semua? Saya alhamdulillah sihat. Rancang nak menulis semalam tapi selepas isyak dah tidur sebab malam sebelumnya tidur 3/4 jam sahaja. Biasalah kalau sebelum exam. Bukan tak nak tidur tapi tak boleh tidur fikir soalan apa akan keluar esoknya. Nak belajar pun sudah tepu tapi lihat juga nota-nota. Sampai tertidur.

Penat exam selepas exam! Rasa down juga sebab  ada station yang tak boleh jawab. Rasa jawapan salah. Adoi~ Berserah dan pasrah. Tawakal kepada Allah swt dan doa banyak-banyak semoga saya dan kawan-kawan lulus final exam ni.

Banyak cerita selama tak menulis di sini yang nak dikongsi. Buat pengetahuan semua, saya dah 'free from classes' dan 'hospital'. Mungkin buat masa sekarang. Rasa nak berehat rehat, tapi fikir balik banyak perkara yang nak dibuat. Sebelum exam ada beberapa perkara yang kena buat untuk 'after exam to-do-list'. Saya suka tulis apa yang nak dibuat(skema tak bunyi?)

Post exam

Sesungguhnya Allah menyukai orang-orang yang bertawakkal kepada-Nya. (Al-Imran : 159)

Kena bangun jangan down-down(huhu). Tawakkal dengan apa yang sudah diusahakan. Jangan berputus asa. Sambil menunggu keputusan keluar ini kena banyak berdoa. Doakan saya berjaya lulus ye?

Setakat ini dahulu. Mood untuk menulis belum datang lagi. Sangat rindu nak menulis sebenarnya! Malam ini mungkin sambung menulis lagi disini. 

Petang hari di Bandung.